Updates on my life (I've been busy)!

First let me apologize for not updating sooner, this has been a busy summer for me. Okay so the woman seen above with me at the Oceanside pier is Nancy. Through some friends I was invited to a bonfire where I met Nancy, and we hit it off. She is fun, so kind, has her shit together, and isn't an alcoholic/druggie. Every weekend we do something new and fun, which I am all about. For example we watch the show Diners, Dives, and Drive-Ins on the food network and we have a goal to find the San Diego restaurants featured on the show. So in other news I got some new supplements from bodybuilding.com. I purchased protein, Amino acids, Nitric Oxide, and thermogenic pills. I find myself being very sore but I'm still gaining strength and losing weight. Recently I was instructed that I don't want to lose too much more weight from my conditioning coach, this has also been the consensus from others at my crossfit gym as well. I also got some new crossfit shoes; the Reebok crossfit nano 2.0's; so far I love everything about them.  Speaking of crossfit, I have a team competition coming up with three others from my gym on July 21st. I hope we win, but I am stoked just to be competing in my first competition!

          So I'm in summer school taking my last chemistry course which is nice to knock off of the list. Quantitative chemistry isn't my ideal course to be taking over the summer but with me being so close to graduating there was nothing else for me to take. My teacher is not what you'd expect for a doctor of chemistry. She is covered with tattoos and is in her third trimester of pregnancy. She doesn't seemed thrilled to be there but what else can she do in her fragile state? So in August I'm going to Las Vegas with Nancy. Nancy booked the hotel, but I intend to repay her, she just doesn't know it :-) I've always had a good time when going to Vegas and I'm really excited to be going with her!

        That is what's current in my life. In crossfit I'm making progress but I still have a ways to go! It's nice to be with someone who has similar goals and interest and takes care of herself. It elevates me to be a better person and I'm not being influenced by self destructive behavior. Oh and if you can't tell from the photos she makes me smile. Here are some more just in case you didn't get the point! At the end of the day if you feel like you are going nowhere, keep striving in one direction. You may feel like your not moving at all but it's because everyone else is standing still, so keep digging!

-Sincerely Michael R. Dominick

Perspective (an honest mans view on promiscuous woman)

                I'm not going to mention any names in this particular blog because I don't want any one's feelings to get hurt and or label anyone. But I will say that this blog involves a friend who is very near and dear to me and he has blond hair (Hana those who know me know who I am talking about). So for the past couple of months my friend has been dating a girl who after our first hang out; I was very skeptical of. The reason I bring up my skepticism is because after that initial hang out she friend requested me on facebook, and I declined her request. Then the next hangout she asked me "why I didn't accept her friend request?" I told her "because when she screws over my friend I don't want to have to delete her off of my facebook." I then went on to say that "you can be my friend in real life," which is more valuable than the petty social status of facebook. Also I am very protective of my homies.

               Fast forward to present day and guess what? They are not seeing each other, to my knowledge. She told him that they should be friends, and from my point of view that is fine because it seemed that they have different goals in life. What I mean by my last sentence is that my friend is an extremely healthy person and exercises regularly. While on the other hand the girl he was seeing excessively drank, smoked, and her idea of a workout consisted of opening and shutting her laptop more than three times a day. Now I am not one to judge someone on their lifestyle choices because I too used to excessively drink and I smoked liked a chimney as well. But for my friend, I felt like her lifestyle was counter productive to my friends goals. I don't think two people need to be clones of eachother but those two didn't compliment one another very well. I know for a fact my friend argued with her about her smoking. Which I can tell you from personal experience; if you are not comfortable with your significant other smoking, you have three options as I see it. The first option is to accept it, be quiet about the subject, and focus on the things that you do like about her (your best option). The second option is to try to change her and control aspects of her life because you don't like them (if you try to do this YOU ARE AN ASSHOLE). The third option is to bring up the subject at an appropriate time and ask her feelings on the subject of her smoking (this option is as useless as the second option, reverting to option one is the best choice because at the end of the day a person is going to quit smoking when THEY are ready, whenever that may be). An issue I had with this girl is that everywhere we went she would point out a guy she had slept with (literally everywhere we went). It's one thing for that to be true or be in the past, but I clearly don't see the need in broadcasting that publicly. I recently had a sincere conversation about the subject with this girl, and this is going to be the MEAT & POTATOES OF THIS BLOG.

               I used to be the kind of person that I wanted to know every and anything about the person I was dating. I used to want to know about who she had been with and what not, but from trial and error have found out that is a bad idea. I've learned that if you spend enough time with someone you can find out all  that you need to know, and you can learn a lot more from an individuals current actions then you can trying to judge them by their past. A persons past is in the past, now I'm not saying that excuses murderers and rapist, but no one is perfect and just worry about how they conduct themselves while they are with you. So me and girl mentioned above in the blog sat down and had a conversation about her promiscuity and her relationships. She said something along the line of "How can you say I fuck guys over? You don't even know me, not even the slightest bit." I went on to say "I know you better than you think I do I've been around your type before, and you may not see it as fucking guys over but let me explain" (I should know, this sounds a lot like someone I used to know, thanks Goyote douche). She goes on to say "oh yeah?" So I then say "Okay so you're the type of girl who jumps from guy to guy casually having sex like no big deal. And then occasionally you will keep a guy for around for a little bit until you become emotionally vulnerable. At that very moment you will than bail because you use your unwillingness to open up emotionally as a self defense mechanism." She then interrupts and says "well your friend doesn't seem to be all that upset/hurt." I then go on to say "he is one of many that you have done this sort of thing to, and he may not be all that broken up about the whole thing, but there are plenty of guys you have done this to who you have hurt. But because you immediately jump from guy to guy you never take the time to reflect on your previous encounter because you only care about yourself (sounding more and more familiar right? ). So you think your protecting yourself at the expense of others which doesn't seem right. You say you want to settle down and get married? Well when your thirty-three and this behavior is considered socially awkward, you will have slim pickings of a significant other because all the good ones have been taken. So you might as well cut out this behavior now and stop being so promiscuous." She then left the table and wouldn't talk to me for the rest of the evening. I wasn't saying this to be malicious or hurtful I was just trying to give her a different perspective. But I guess the truth hurts......
  
                I'm sorry if you see my views as cold, biased, or whatever, I don't care this is my blog don't read it anymore if I offended you. I'm just calling it how I see it. But I too have been in this situation but fortunately for my good friend all he lost was a little bit of pride, which I think he'll get back soon enough.

Sincerely, Michael R. Dominick

The shit clouds in my life have a silver lining.

So I finished my spring semester last week, woo hoo! I now have 30 days off between now and summer school. So at my work we have this new girl (blondie) who I thought was pretty and nice, so two weeks ago I asked her out and she said no. She gave me a some BS reason why she couldn't and that we should remain friends, although we are just work acquaintances and not friends. As it turns out she likes the cook at my work who is a womanizing scumbag. I guess some girls just like dirty douches, oh well her loss. I know I have a lot more to offer then the guy she's choosing to be with, the fact she's attracted to that dude is baffling and has made her null and void in my life. Whatever I'll just roll with the punches. Since that fiasco I have met another girl through some of my crossfit buddies. So far things are going well with that. Let's just say this girl is definitely more my speed and we think alike. So much so at times it kind of freaks me out, but in a good way.

Since last summer my lack of trust in the other gender has been at an all time high. Thankfully having people like Leeanne Kennedy and Sarah Reitz in my life as well as all my other awesome friends allow me to be reassured that not everyone that was born with a vagina is a scandalous pirate hooker. By the way, Shout outs to Leeanne for coming out to Cali from Florida, you have always been a dear friend of mine       :-) Sometimes I still get down about old hang ups that I will not discuss with anyone anymore because no one cares. It sucks when something is burning inside you and there's no one you can tell. You can't tell them because you just don't want to or you think that they won't care because they've heard about it 3 million times. That's kind of where I am at with my situation; I'm guessing burying it is better than to keep reliving it. Never the less it puts a fire under my ass that I use to push me in crossfit because that's my outlet for stress release. This past week in crossfit I got my name on the board as well as a top three finish! Say whaaaaaaaatttttt!!!!!

So now that I'm on vacation I've made a list of things I want/am going to do this summer (in no particular order).

1. Go home to Florida for a week(early June).
2. Crossfit more than I already do.
3. Spend more time with my godson Joaquin.
4. Get an A in my summer chemistry course.
5. Play the guitar like a mofo...learn at least two songs.
6. Swim more.
7. Love the life I live.
8. Don't dwell on the past (what has happened, has happened and theres no changing that).

Happy people don't have the best of everything, they make they best of everything.
In other words when life hands you lemons you paint that shit gold.



That's it I'm out love y'all!

"For all of this, I'm better off without you. Do you regret so....Your loneliness?"
http://youtu.be/1OKQvzLxPQg
Signed, Sincerely me.......

A not so good week but I'm okay.

So my week started off not so good, which was an inclination to what I had to look forward to. So in my Ecology class around 9 o clock on Monday I discovered that a marine I had served with had died while serving over in Afghanistan. When something like this happens I'm usually pretty down for about a week or so. I don't know all the details yet. But he was a good Marine and an even better person, you will be missed. Then a girl I had been crushing on since last semester (we'll just call her NIGL) is pregnant. Then another girl I was supposed to be set up with, or at least just meet because a friend thought we would hit it off, was set up by another friend, so that opportunity has gone down the drain. After that string of bad news I went on Facebook to discover that a favorite band of mine is calling it quits after ten years. I'm bummed about the band because I listened to them more than other bands consistently and their music was able to bring out different emotions in me, which is hard for any type of music to do. I'm also bummed because they were from Canada and I never got to see them perform live once. These are all issues that are out of my control but I'm still aloud to be bothered by them (forgive me for caring).

To my fallen brothers and to all previous and future comrades keep fighting the good fight your deaths are not in vain and you will never be forgotten. As for NIGL at first I was grossed out at the fact you were pregnant. It even bothered me how you'd talk about how excited you were and look forward to having the baby. I think just part of me was jealous. Honestly I can only hope, no scratch that........ I can't wait until I meet someone that I want to have a kid with and I can only hope that she is half as stoked as you are to be having a baby. All in due time I suppose......Speaking of due time I can't be too bummed about the other girl I was supposed to meet and be set up with, it's no surprise she met someone else. That's fine with me because I'm a little more traditional anyways.

Call me a hopeless romantic (or probably something more derogatory) but I like when I meet a girl on my own and it's not so facilitated. Call it fate if you will, it's the same reason I don't go on dating websites. When I grow old with the person I love (as cheesy as it sounds) I want to look back and tell my grand kids that "I met your grandmother at......," not that I met the woman of my dreams on a dating website that I paid for. I've gone on dating websites before and I've had success, but it didn't feel right. Now a days I find myself meeting woman with children, drug problems, obesity, and or woman that like me but I have no desire to be intimate with. I really don't think my criteria is too demanding, but I'm in no rush, so I guess it's all in due time; All in due time. I'll just keep putting my best foot forward and smiling.



If things seem to be overwhelming, I'll just focus my energy into this bad boy and crossfit even harder.

 



I've never been one to beg pardon but I'm on my knees! I've tried my best to smile, but it's hard when you look up for the stars, and ask the sky when they're coming back. ..........Frustration. I guess I'll cover up my frustration acting like a super secret agent who lets everyone know how awesome he is (that's a joke) but Archer is pretty bad ass!

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Signed sincerely me

In between.... (you, me, and the stars)

I'm 27 years old and I'm healthier than I've ever been. I have a good job, great friends, an amazing dog, but I can't help feeling like something or should I say someone is missing. It's been 10 months since the person I was so madly in love with walked out on me. As far as emotionally goes, that is the worst pain and sorrow that I've ever endured. Honestly I wouldn't wish that on my worst enemy. At least if your dead it's over and you don't have to deal with the memories of past experiences, or the mental anguish from lost love. Half of me feels like what I just stated, but then the other half of me knows that I'm better off without her. Everyone that knew us knows how good I was to her, with the exception of your friends who I'm pretty sure never liked me anyways. Everyone that has been around her long enough knows, including your friends. We all know someone like her; someone that makes excuses not to find a good guy, or when they do find a good guy they make excuses to justify how he isn't a good guy. For her this pattern will repeat itself and she will probably never grow out of it. I don't even think she knows she does it but than again that's not my concern anymore....

Even if she were to contact me I would just avoid it (like I do). I have nothing to say, when you walk out on someone and leave them, how do you think they would react. You are basically saying "Go F yourself, I don't care." So forgive me if I pretend like you don't exist outside of my blog, which I'm pretty sure is more credit and time then you would ever give me. I have a question for her; At the end of the day when you go home and have no one to share your success, accolades, and grievances with, and I mean really share these things with some one (not friends) where will you be? I don't even think I'm bitter anymore because at least now I can talk about it without the attachment of emotion. I'm just bothered by a couple of things/mistakes I made which I will list in a numerical order.

1. I was never as much in love as I was in love with you.

I never in a million years imagined the person I would have these feelings for could be as heartless in return when it was all said and done. But then again I never though I'd be that much in love and have the other person walk out on me. Now I live life for myself, so I guess that is a positive.

2. All the warning signs were there but I was so blinded by love I chose to ignore them.

All the major problems we had always came from you. I know there are two people in a relationship but fuck me you had a lot of issues. Which didn't mean anything because I accepted you for who you are. All I ever wanted was you, just as you were but even that was too much for you too handle. I know there are two sides to a story, and there were two parties involved, but the blame falls on you. I'm not saying I was perfect in the relationship but holy shit if there were a badge for being a fucking trooper and sticking it out through thick and thin, I would've been a three time recipient.

3. Now I deal with the consequences of the fallout.

Do you remember when we were at the animal shelter getting Optimus Prime? You probably don't, who are we kidding. Let me remind you, when were standing outside in the lobby waiting to go inside and meet Sunny AKA Optimus Prime you asked me "What's wrong?" I replied nothing but that wasn't entirely true I was thinking if we split it's gonna suck because I'm gonna miss that little guy (which I do). Sure I could get another cat, but that's not the same. It's consequences that I was aware of but because I thought I was so in love I didn't care. Like getting involved with someone I worked with. I was at Palomar for three years and made a few friends. Well it's your office now so I don't really go by there, granted I have no reason too. But it would be nice to go in and not feel like I'm on egg shells or have people think I'm there because you work there. Just more consequences at this point. If those are the worst then so be it I think I'll live.

Even at my worst, time still travels on. The sun still will shine in the sky. The stars will still shimmer at night. Even if somethings missing and I don't think it's right. I know me and Jager will be alright.

Signed sincerely me

http://youtu.be/Pn-6eOxnEMI

Reclaiming places for myself (thank you friends)

So last night I went to Benihana's with Mike W and Christie (Mike W's lady friend). It was nice to go out with friends after a long week of work and school. I wasn't sure how I would feel after going to Benihana's after a year of not going. Benihana's was a restaurant that was reserved for me and someone that was once the love of my life. There has been a list of places in my mind that I have avoided because I just didn't want to think about her. So last night I was concerned that I might be a "Debbie Downer" or perhaps tear up. But I am happy to report that I reclaimed a place for myself that was once considered off limits. It's refreshing to throw away things from your past and replace those old memories with people that care about you. After reflecting about last night, it made me realize that the people who were your friends before certain people come in/out of your life will remain your friends, because they care about you. The people that come in and out of your life never really cared and never really mattered (just lessons learned at best). After Benihana's we went over to D street and Encinitas and raged. I had a blast mingling with strangers and chatting it up with some cute blond woman. Then towards the end of the night some dude came up to me telling me about how his ex girlfriend was calling him up. He goes on to tell me that his friends told him to be done with it and stay away. I told him he should listen to his friends, but he seemed more interested in the short sighted goal :-/ Oh well I can't harp on the guy. Like myself some of us just have to learn the hard way.

This week in crossfit was a week that used a lot of heavy weights in the workouts, which is in my favor, but man am I sore. On Saturday my favorite coach was coaching (Ashley), she's a good trainer and not bad to look at while I'm working out ( motivation (-: haha in the event she reads this YES I think your good looking!). It was a small class like 6 people. After the WOD (workout of the day) Mac accused me of not doing all the reps. I didn't think much of it at the time, but F that noise! I always do all the reps and put 100% into each WOD. He has to have a big set of balls to call me out in front of the group. I did beat him by two minutes (that's why he was butt hurt) but I did explain that I didn't RX the candle stick portion of the workout and that where I blew by him. Oh well I can't be concerned with haters. My results speak for them self and I'm glad he has time to be concerned with my number of reps as well as his own :-)

Well I gotta get ready for work. See you guys next time and a special shout out to my friends for being who they are......... thanks for just being honest and having the ability to care for someone besides yourself.

Signed sincerely me.........

Imogen Heap-hide and seek

So I was in my bedroom sorting laundry before I go into work and this song came on by Imogen Heap. The lyrics towards the end of the song struck a cord with me. The lyrics go something like this.....

"Ransom notes keep falling out your mouth.
Mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut-outs.
Speak no feeling, no I don't believe you.
You don't care a bit. You don't care a bit.

You don't care a bit.
You don't care a bit.
You don't care a bit.
You don't care a bit.
You don't care a bit."

I'm not sure why I spend time thinking about someone that doesn't think about me at all (just one of those nights I guess). I'm just gonna sit in silence for a bit....

Signed sincerely me.....